Finito

Yeah, I found my way back on!
So, uh, yeah.
I think I might make a new blog that is just my life, you know?
Just ramblings and damblings and things.
Yes.
Yessiree.
You can find it so easy if you really believe in the power of rock and roll.

Work

So, I quit my job. Don't worry though. I have another one. It pays more, I get more hours, and it's far less emotionally draining.
My old boss was a psychopathic hoe-bag >:C
Just kidding. She had an unhealthy impulse to control and a hypercritical eye, not to mention her desire to keep all staff as tense as possible.
And that's not so bad. It's when I got mad at her for contradicting herself (and me having to suffer), and she gave me a week off of work. That is plain passive aggressive behavior, she didn't speak to me even to chastise, simply took hours away from me.
Y'know, so I can get rich sitting around.
So I found a job for that week, and it was so much better I decided to stay there.
And my letter of resignation was very polite, do you know. I said the reasons for my departure were entirely economical, because she was not giving me enough hours. Just, if you were wondering why I am so vitriolic now, it's because I refrained from leaving with bitterness and childish tantrums.
The only real downside is that the area where I worked then was a hub of people. So, if I just wandered around I would always find somebody. At my new job there are far fewer regulars whom I have connected with.
So I am a little cut off, socially. But that is not so bad. Nothing that can't be overcome with diligence and action, respect and assertiveness.
Yes!
The power of passion!

The cloud steps home
Sick to his stomach
Trying not to rain.

Vertical lines
If you turn your face, become
Horizontal lights

The quiet setting
Somehow, there is too much noise
Not here or there.

No ride home.
Just a ride through the night -
And the rain and the wind!

Ocean jumping
Into my arms...
Am I surprised?

Shining night seashore
Brings me forgetfulness
Of the star lit sky.

The poems were just for july, you know, so now I will not have any haiku for you. But oh well. Such is life, they say.
LOVE
POWER
PEACE
<3

Sociality

Nothing too interesting is occuring nowadays so I thought I might enlighten you to the social dynamics of Hornby.

There are essentially three groups of people. The locals, who live here year round or just about, are the most respected. They are usually pretty crazy too. Everybody wishes they were a local is what. The tourists everybody hates, because they don't know anything, aren't interesting, and are generally snootyish. Nobody likes them at all really. But we need their money, so we act at least pleasant. Lastly, because people buy second homes or jazz on hornby, the real estate prices are thru tha roof. Consequently, there is a group of people who are migrant workers, who come by only in the summer. This is because they can't afford to live year-round. This is another reason why people don't like the tourists. The migrant workers are pretty cool too, but often they are really into just partying and stuff so not quite respectable like the locals.
Of course, the lines between these blur. For example, myself, I am staying with a local (my auntie) which makes me like a local, but I am only here for the summer and am working here. So, that is the migrant worker aspect. People seem to just accept me though so that is nice. Also, there is another girl I met who used to come here every summer but now she comes as a migrant worker. Is she a local because she has spent so often time here? Is she a tourist because she is not from the island?? These are all pertinent questions.
Everybody loves me though, like I said last post. It is only the luckiest thing. I have made many many friends, and it doesnt even matter too, because everyone is friendly to me even if we aren't friends.
One thing that I love about hornby that the city can never offer me, is that there are like three places to go on the island. So, if you just go there and stand around long enough, just about anyone will show up. This makes it much easier to befriend people. Not to mention the ease with which one can follow up on love oppurtunities.
Not saying anything!
:D
That's it for today. Sorry for the reall slow pace I am moving at.
Here are all the haiku you have been missing!

Wind moves through you
Staring at the sky - hitchhike
In a pick-up truck.

The path is moving
Through trees and brush; the one sound
Of a closer shore.

A wake-up phone call
You know, the birds are singing
Called in on day off.

White stripe on water
Like tides, corresponds to the
Glimmering moonrise.

Shallow ditch-water
So clear, so teeming with life
Yet just a ditch.

Wake up to clouds
At work, no one will know
I slept on the beach.

Same place, every night -
But endless variation
Of each sun setting.

Day Off

Sorry for not posting recently.
You see, this is my first day off in six days. Yeah! That's a while. So, what is there to say...
I have made many friendlies here. People are nice, and once you get into the Hornby vibe, most everyone is accepting of you. Most of my friends are older than me, in their twenties or thirties, but who likes teenagers anyways? These guys are much more chill. (Chill means they are cool.) They are more like me, and care less about parties and alcohol and drugs and jazz. And, every night there is a party on the beach!! Beach parties are so much fun, but even more so around a fire at night. I am gaining more confidence in myself, because it has been less than a month and already everybody loves me.
It has been harder for me to be writing haiku all the time you know, because of just life. But I do!

comments

Nobody comments!
I know I haven't updated with shocking regularity, but doesn't anybody love me?

just life is what.

Working hard!! Ten hours turned out to be more like 8, but I was still tired this morning. You know, the way the ball rolls, the way the yarn spools, I am getting a little exhausted. However!! My cafe boss promised me not to book me for work on the day that I have my cleaning job. That makes things a little easier, you bet!! And I have some days off.
Also, that Japanese coworker whom I mentioned earlier suggested that she could give me Japanese lessons in exchange for me teaching her some guitar. I've only been playing for a year, and she's been speaking for all her life, so it's not quite equal, but I wanted her to teach me anyways... so this is good. c:
Yes!! Passionately seizing the oppurtunities that present themselves!!
That is what is going through my mind at all the times.
So, you know, I will work less this week, and hopefully less next week, because I have a life I want to live you know. It'll all work out!

Anyways, yesterday my auntie's friends took us out for a bite to eat on their boat. The same ones who helped to organize my party, what kindness, right?? Yeah, it was so beautiful but though. The water, the forest, the moon...

Watching the white moon
turn from dusty bone into
Abaloney shine.

Evening boat ride...
Through time, space, infinity
Personal echoes.

work

sorry, no updates right now!
I have like ten hours of work to do or something @o@
So but I will make sure not to have too much work on the island.
Passion!

Birthday

You know, just as I notice the falling back of vivid experience, newness happens again...

It was my birthday yesterday. Me and auntie went to an art gallery, a beach, a bakery, a restaurant, so nice. It all led up to the party. I was very proud of myself to have so many people scrounged up in two days. People, came and went, but it was very enjoyable.
After that, I went to the beach with some teenagers of my age. It was night, and there was fire. Initially disorienting, I found my crowd-legs, as they say, and enjoyed myself.
The night was beautiful. There were these things in the sea called "phospheresences" that glowed and sparkled if you agitated the water. And the sky was so filled with stars! At around one I walked back with my co-worker who I had come to know better over the course of the night. It is so beautiful, to walk in silence in the depth of night, tall sillhouettes of trees and expansive darkness. This is really vividness of experience, is what!

You know, walking home
In the deep-set quiet
The night seems too huge.


PS there are photos, but auntie wants me to show her how to upload them, so you will see them later.

Nothing much

Now that I am used to Hornby, I notice the searing sensuality fades...
I suppose that is life. You can only be made to feel so alive by the sound of leaves and the shape that water takes for so long. And it is not as if I will never feel it again.
This is especially true now that I have settled into my work schedule. Definately, the vacation aspect has waned and the learning experience aspect rises.

Clouds in lavender
A goose family calls, and leaves
Has the moon come yet?

I am tired - work is hard! And I did not sleep well last night. you know. So, pictures of days gone by.

Hot kitchens
You work, you work, chop chop
Eight'o'clock collapse.

Sorry for not updating! You know.

Anyways, yesterday morning we found a mouse! In the lamp!! What?? Yeah!!
And the lamp is suspended from the ceiling. How?? How did...?
Turns out there was a mouse nest where the lamp cord meets the ceiling!!
It was the greatest. I woulda showed you the photos, but as I uploaded them, the window closed >:C And It really takes a while to upload them. So tomorrow, maybe.

Anyways, TODAY - first day of work! You know, the passionate intensity of youth working on rough projects - that is the situation. And, the girl who was teaching my job stuff came from Japan (so she said she'd help me with my Japanese!!) So that's fun. Also, we went to the beach.
THE BEACH!!
You don't even know.
It took me three hours to go all the way in the water. Like, my feet were in, but I didn't want to dunk. I knew it would be fun, but somehow I had this visceral recoil from the initial frigidity I expected.
"How Infuriatingly emblematic of life!" I said.
Those were the days, my friend.
Yeah, then auntie lost the keys. Yeah! To the car. So we walked home. But! I found the spare, at home. I am good at that.
And we talked to some friends of auntie and they decided to totally throw me a birthday party.
It'll be the greatest!!!

From the beach -


Warm rocks stand alone...
Is that kelp I see? No wait -
A crab scuttles by.

And to make up for a missed day -


The shifting sunlines
Bring to light tiny fragments
Beneath the sea shore.

Another rainy night.

Stuart left for the Mainland.
So I am just waiting.

You can't imagine
The distance between two drops
Camping in the rain.

Post pictureless

Today was nice. Auntie had to go to a place of work and invited me along (because of course she would be there like three hours.) So yeah I had to wake up earlier than I would have liked (because I slept unwell last night.) I talked to one lady, who was the wife of the guy whose place was the place of work, and we had some nice conversation. She even gave me a book! It was about the middle ages. Nice stuff, really. yeah.
I didn't take any pictures, you might have noticed. That is just the way of life. To not have photos.

Haiku:
Sundown by the sea
Not over water, but hills;
One or two people.

So, for what happened today:
Auntie had some jazz to deal with, so me and Stu were to meet her at the co-op at 3:30. We hung out for a while. We decided to walk there around 2:oo. Anyways, we got there early.(Me and stu walking down the street ^ ) So, we got there like a half hour early, so we got some drinks and went down to the beach.
Here I am, with drink and beach. You will notice of course the reoccurring rock formations. How strange! How amazing! Gasp in horror at their oddness.
When auntie came we decided to go to the forest. It was a nice nice walk. The forest is so so pretty, you know! The way the light falls through the trees.
We walked for rather awhile, and came upon a beach.

How can I describe the colour of the summer sea? It is not done justice by this tiny image. We sat awhile, it was really quite windy.Here I am, sitting on the grass. There was a pretty patch of grass behind the logs and stones. It reminded auntie of the prairie grasses. I love the bright yellow it has. And it was nice as the wind swept it up in a tumultuous chorus of moving grass with me, unmoving, at the centre.

I already gave you a haiku today. So, no haiku until tomorrow!

last night at the beach.

Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments c:
I will try to keep this blog updated on the daily!!
Yesterday evening we all went to the beach. It was unseasonably cloudy, but that's alright, right? Anyways, we had a good time.







This is Red Dog. He is aunite's. He is so big but just the sweetest! This is a great shot of him by the sea.
We're trying to raise money to send him to the vet, because he has mysterious lumps of a worrisome nature. >:C
Not very happy. But! He is an old doggy, so in a sense, life is overtaking him.







What? Who's this sexy kid??
Anyways, I went in. Yeah, it was a little cold, but the sand was silky soft beneath my feet. It was like walking through clouds! Cold ones. Yeah. I spent some of the time reading traditional poetry from the Kokinshuu, or "Collected poems old and new." It is one of the most influential poetic anthologies from Japan. It is like a thousand years old or something. Yeah. Pretty old.


This is a good picture of the october sea that has enshrouded my July of warm nights and passionate glances. You could say. I wrote a haiku about it:
Off in the distance
Where the sea becomes the cloud
A lone cedar log.


But this is not my daily haiku.



As we were leaving, the sky began to rain. This made me happy: I had hoped for rain, because the sound of rain on trees and structures is the most beautiful. We drove home through the smoky world to sit in our house and read as the rain washed over the windows.

The smell of smoke and
In distant thunder, the voice
Of summer rain.

today: the day after

Ahh! I woke up this morning to another bright sunny morning. Here is a picture of auntie's house. Nice, huh? Yeah. No kidding. Anyways, she was upset because she spent her grocery money at the party last night. Never fear, though! We are allright. We had yoghurt and granola for breakfast. But we had to go down to the cove so Stuart could get reception.These funny faces are my brother Stuart and my Auntie (in that order). We all get along great.


This is the cove (Fords cove) with me and stu. Once again, I am looking handsome! Anyways, check out the illin' geological formations. Hornby is home to many such amazing eccentricities! Anyways, Stuart checked his bank from his cellphone and found out there was like 900 extra dollars in there. What? Fifteen minutes later, his bank lady phoned and told him someone had tried to scam him! They deposited an empty envolope as 1000 dollars and then tried to withdraw it. The bank saved stu's money, thankfully, but it compromised his bank card, so he had to cut it up. So, he has no way to access his money now! He is in a bit of a conundrum, but I said I would lend him money if he needed it.
This is just stuart's cool tatoo. He wanted me to show everybody.
So anyways, he was all depressed, and we found this guy. He was just playing guitar on the beach. He is Quebecois and a pretty neato guy. He let us play on his guitar too and stuart cheered up. c: Yay! Yeah. We actually hung out for like 2 hours. It was pretty intense.So, that's what happened today. Fun as always! I hope the rest of the day is nice too. Maybe I will post again today, maybe I will not.

Haiku:
The rushing sounds of leaves
Under bright morning sunshine -
My towel dried hair.

This also was written yesterday. Maybe one day I will catch up.

Canada day party

I like this picture of me and my Auntie. We were cooking. I broke a jar. Anyways, I look good here. It was a great meal and we took it to the Canada day party we went to. It was because the stuff they sold was expensive, so we made our own.
Yeah. We had one meal today. It was dinner.






So yeah.








After eating there was a tug of war contest. Auntie went up for the contest. And then, at the last minute, instead of tugging, they chanted "No more war!" and made the rope into a circle. It was great.

She showed me to some of her friends. They seem nice. I can't wait to become a part of the community.









This is the band that played. They had three or four marimbas and a drumset and some tabla-esque things and a bass guitar and a regular guitar and shakers. Shka shka shakers. Yeah.
They played some laid back tropic music and stuff. Everyone was jammin'. You don't even know.







All in all it was a nice occasion. It was ages and then it got dark, and they had fireworks. Yay! Canada day! All that jazz.

Night.

July 1st

Happy canada day!
And all that.
Today I woke up to the sound of leaves rushing with wind: the most beautiful sound. Sunlight pours in through the many strange windows of the cabin. I wander through the shining sun-dappled leaves of the forest around me to find the articles I require for a shower.
The shower sure was crazy. I may take a picture at some point... wonderful, anyways. I have spent all day lazing and dazing, which I don't really like. I like to do things, I guess. But anyways. No word from my employer about when I start, but I'm not worried. She's my neighbour, too! Yeah. So...

I guess this is the end of my post. Such a nice time!
I guess since I am doing a haiku wrimo (WRIting MOnth, a haiku a day for a month) I can show it here too.

Todays:
Bright white sunshine
Again, glittering and vanishing,
On ferry born waves.

This one is about yesterday, though... but it works out.

This is the blog

Hi! This is the blog of my hornby island trip, to be distributed to all who care. And all should care. Yeah. I'm totally lookin' at you.
Anyways, no photos yet, maybe tomorrow or something.
C:
That is a smile.
SMILE
Okay bye